I am so unsure of why I am so timid.
I can’t tell the person “ ***”
How I wish I have this chance .
Does that person feel this way for me too?
I don’t know.

First time not going to attend lectures in school today because I am having a bad diarrhea now. Actually not just diarrhea, but also stomachache. Could not get to sleep yesterday night because my stomach was extremely pain. I was clenching my fist hoping that I would feel better. So, I just stayed up until 1 am , before I could finally get to sleep. When I woke up, I thought the situation was better but end up it got worse. Keep on running to the toilet since the morning but I am feeling a little better now.


Yesterday was so funny. Lydia suddenly talked to me because i put “stomachache now… pain!!!” And she wishes me to get well soon. I told her I want to get well only on Tuesday so that I can have the excuse of not going to school today. So that I could stay at home to complete my chem report. Now, I regretted what I said because going to toilet so many times really sucks.


Anyway, I went out with the QAT to Bugis yesterday. So happy!!! I met tiffany first because I told her I want to go to the library to copy some info from the reference books for my report. And she agreed to go with me. After that, at 1:30, we went to meet Adela and Qiao Yu. We went to have our lunch at the Hong Kong restaurant. They ordered noodles while I ordered fried rice. Wonder if it is the fried rice that made me sick. =( Took pictures over there and I shall post them up asap. After that, it is to Bugis Street for shopping. However, it was hot, crowded and noisy there and so we stayed there only for a short while.


We were bored after that and we decided to go and watch a movie ( Don’t mess with the Zohan). Some parts were rather disgusting because butts were being exposed. But overall, it was rather funny. We were super angry with the lady selling the tickets because she had attitude problem. She was staring at us and took a long time saying nothing before she finally said” Take out ur ICs.” We were there saying” Don’t we look older than 16?” And, and, and ….. she gave us the wrong tickets and wrong timing for the shows. We wanted Zohan at 5:15 but she gave us Wanted at 6:45. After the show, we went home. Nice time being with them. Hope we can meet up again!!!


Stomach still super uncomfortable now and I hope I will get well soon, by tomorrow.

Woohoo~ It’s the weekends and I’m so happy!!! Because I can meet the QAT ( Qiao Yu, Adela and Tiffany) tomorrow. Been so long since I last saw Adela and Tiffany. We will be going to Bugis for shopping again. Haha.. But I will be meeting Tiffany tomorrow earlier because I want to go to the library to borrow some Chemistry Books as reference for my Chem report. I had not done it yet and it is due on this coming Tuesday. So, I will have to get it done by tomorrow or by Monday.


Anyway, nothing much happen today except going out with my mother to City Plaza. No nice clothes there and so we went to pamper our stomach by eating many things. Haha, Penang Laksa and Arnold’s Chicken again. We walked around and did not manage to see anything we like and so went home at 1 plus.


I realized I am getting too fat and so I decided to go to the gym at the community centre opposite my house for some exercise. It was very cheap ($2 for 2 hours).I went to work out at the treadmill and practically brisk walk for 3.4km. ( Inclination: 7, Speed:6.5, Time : 24:32) After that, I was already panting and sweating like mad. And I saw a middle-aged Indian man who set his speed to 10 and he ran I think at least 30 minutes non-stop. His stamina is so good .. After that, I went to raise the 5kg dumb bells for only 10 times and I gave up. I did not want to strain my muscles because I still have to go shopping tomorrow. I got real tired after that and so went home after 1 hour. I had 1 more hour to go but I decided to head home because my whole body was so sticky. I want to go to the gym again! Hmm, perhaps next Wednesday.= )


So many things waiting for me to be done
- CRS project
- Geomatics project
- Chem report
I will try to have them done SOON.


Bye!

1) Smile =)

Yeah! End of MST already but not sth to celebrate about becuase i am super worried for my results. Think most probably no As at all but only Bs or Cs. Oh well, jus have to work hard for the real exams. Perhaps start revision next week so that i can be fully prepared for it . I dont want a last minute revision like this MST.

Anyway, after the test today, no one in my class went out to celebrate because most of the people were doing the CRS project. And my group's topic was" Smoking should be banned in Singapore." We wanted to know how much will a person spent in a year if they were to smoke 10 sticks a day. However, we did not know how much does a pack of cigarette cost and so my group went around asking people. No smoker-friend was online and so the moment Vishaal came online, i asked him immediately. He took a super long time to reply me and so i went to ask mao mei, thinking that she will know. She went to ask Jeremy instead and he said if Singapore were to banned smoking, it will all be because of us. Halfway through the project, I was bored.

I then came up with a stupid idea. " Nat, u wan web-cam with me?" Haha, so funny... Both of us were just beside each other and we want to web-cam with each other. We laughed like mad when we see each other on the web-cam. We took many lame shots and Vivian joined in a few shots too. After that, i did not feel like doing anymore and so went to play Viwawa. Then at 5, i left the library and went home.

Shall end here now and i shall go play Big 2.5 at Viwawa now. I want to be level 15 by today.

Hurray! Tomorrow is he last day of MST. I am super happy. However, I definitely won’t do well this time round because I went for it without my revisions. Haiz, regretted playing so much during the holidays. I spent the holidays by just shopping, playing viwawa, chatting on msn and talking on the phone onliy. It was only towards the last week of holidays, then did I start studying. So super regret now! But well, I cant fret too much over it because what’s over is over. I can only tell myself to study better for the exams coming in 7 or 8 weeks time. I am going to start studying for it soon, latest by next week. I am going to do better than what I did for this MST. I am super sad over Chemistry, Geomatics and Structures. There fore, if I can get a B, I will be more than contented.


Anyway, let me talk about yesterday. After the chemistry paper, my class went to celebrate Nat’s super belated birthday. It was delayed till now she is always absent when we had everything planned properly. First, it was on the class outing to Seoul Garden and secondly, it was during Structures Make-up lesson. So, we finally celebrated it for her. We bought a pair of MNG jeans for her because when I went shopping with her at Vivo one day, she said she liked it a lot. However, a look at the price and we got shocked. Therefore, our class decided to give that to her since the price was split among 20 people. Haha, we managed to get it for her at a cheaper price because Sock decided to help us buy since she worked at MNG. Nat was super happy because she finally managed to get what she wanted.


Currently studying for tomorrow’s Structures test. A module that I totally have no confidence in. Never mind, it is only a test and I believe I will do better in the upcoming exams, I must study, study, study for it! I want to do well…….


Ending this post here now. Look at this.. MICHAEL YZK, MY POST IS SO MUCH LONGER AND BETTER THAN YOURS! MUAHAHA…SO STOP COMPLAINING!

Finally blogging after so many days. Not really in a very good mood these few days and so was not in the mood to blog . Anyway, yesterday was the leo club BBQ at Pasir Ris. Reached Pasir Ris MRT at 10 plus with bear bro, mao mei , nei nei, Jeremy and xin ying. As usual, mao mei complained that she was extremely hungry and so she settled her breakfast at Mac. Haha, bear bro and I had a fun time hiding her food. He took her coke while I took her hashbrown and hid it under his book. And then, bear bro and I lied to her that Xin Ying was too hungry and drank the coke including the cup and said that nat took the hashbrown away. And finally, she decided to give up and said “ If ur wan eat the hashbrown, just eat.” And stupid bear bro just immediately took out the hashbrown and showed it to her. I wanted to play with her for a longer time because her expressions was so funny.


After that, it was to the arcade where we played for a little while, while waiting for the lazy big bear to come. And after that, we set off to the park. We wanted to cycle at first but mao mei did not want because she was scared. And so, we decided to go to the playground to play with shorty mophead and sock joining us. So happy to see her! And we had a nice and fun time playing at the playground. We jumped like kids and laughed really happily. Glad to see her smiling. =)


At 3:30, we went to Cheers and buy some drinks and charcoal.for the BBQ. And all of us headed back to the pit for BBQ. Before it started, we were having a cam-whoring session. So fun! So, I wrapped the corn and sweet potato and BBQ-ed the food too. Had a nice time there cooking the food but my legs were aching from all the standing. After bear bro retired from his satay man job, wu ming ren took over. He was the only guy helping out at the pit and so the girls were all suaning him. Butter were running out but he still put a lot of butter over his satay and so we all shouted really very loud at him. Hahaha.


The BBQ was a fun and enjoyable one but some idiots have to do sth bad to Dilyse. Did not went over to comfort her because my heart was thumping too fast as it was already 10:30.Hope u r alright now, Dilyse. =) I was really very afraid of going home at such a late hour because when I go home at this time, the way to the lift will be so super quiet with no one in sight at all.I was afraid to miss the last train at Dhoby Ghaut too. When I reached there, my heart was thumping even faster till I can break down anytime. So, I decided to call my dad and asked him to come down to fetch me home because I was really too afraid. And finally, I reached Boon Keng and was so happy to see my dad waiting for me at the control station. Walked back home and I went to bathe. And so, I went online while waiting for my hair to dry. My heart was still thumping super fast at that time. Haiz, all because of that super crazy old man who gave me a shock out of my life when I went back home late, one day. I will never forget about that and so leaving me with fright when I go home later than 10 everyday. Guess I will never ever want to reach home later than 10 anymore. It is so super scary!


At 1, I wanted to sleep but my heart was thumping so fast that I cant even sleep. I hugged my Care Bear really hard and I don’t know why, tears just rolled down my eyes. I felt so much better crying out and my heart thump slower . Slowly and slowly, I went to sleep.


I had learnt my lesson. I never ever want to reach home so late anymore. I don’t want to have such frights anymore because the feeling is so scary and unbearble. Damn that stupid, old, crazy man!

Jus go back from the wake not long ago. Haiz, got quite emotional over there because I really sympathize her. She is so sensible but why should such things happen to her? Perhaps, it is a good thing for her family because they do not have to bear with the pain of seeing the father struggling with the illness. I believe it is heart-breaking for them too.

It just somehow reminded me of my uncle who passed away 2 years ago. He was 59 then and had been struggling with cancer for almost 3 years. He was first detected of having cancer somewhere along the place where a person urine and slowly and slowly , he gets weaker till sometimes he will just faint unknowingly. So, he begin his chemotherapy session and soon loses all his hair. However, a miracle happened. The cancer cells in his body greatly reduced and soon he recovered. We were all so happy for him. However, the 3 sons of his did not know how to appreciate him at that time. One of my cousin even went to steal money from him to repay for the loss of money from his stocks. My uncle was of course disappointed in him but forgave him still. However, sad things happened soon. When my uncle went back to the hospital again for a whole body scan, they realized that he had not fully recovered. But in fact, it got worst. The cancer cells had spread to his liver and what’s worse, his brain. It was only at this time that my cousins regretted not treating him well. It was all too late because the doctor told them that their father only has 4 months. We all kept this secret from him because we did not want him to be too pessimistic. Lucky, he still can eat so he spent his last 4 months in Dover Hospice, a place for terminal-disease patients. Everyone went there to accompany him almost every night . People there were very sick and most of them had to be on tube-feeding. One most sad case will be perhaps a 20+ woman who fell down from her double decker bed. Just this fall, it resulted her to have severe brain injuries. Soon, she passed away. She was only 20+ years old then, with a bright future awaiting her. But she just had to leave her loved ones. Not long later, my uncle died peacefully in around August 2006.

I seriously hoped that my family, friends and everyone can stay happy and healthy forever. Cheer up ****, I admire u for being so strong. =)

The father of a good friend of mine whom I had known for about 2 months had passed away. =’( This results in me having 2 sleepless nights. I had been thinking of so many “ What ifs”. What if it is me who experience such a thing in my family, what if it is my father is sick and have to leave me so soon, and so many what ifs” Through what she had experienced, I tell myself that I should cherish my parents and love them more.I should begin to appreciate my parents more. And yes, I should LOVE them more from this moment onwards.

To _____, although I had known u for only 2 months, I know that u r a really very sensible and strong girl . That time, when u shared with ____ and I that ur father is really sick and had very few months left, we were shocked and sad for you. U have always appear as a happy and cheerful girl in front of us. If i were you, i believe i will never be able to carry a smile on face. All i will do is perhaps only cry and cry and cry. But, u r realy strong enough and i aamire u for that. I believe your father leaves with no regrets because he had brought up such a sensible daughter. Continue to pursue that passion of yours in your life and I believe one day, u will become an outstanding nurse. I believe your father will be happy in the netherworlds. Cheer up and may you be blessed with happiness. =)

Shall end here now. Bye!

May all sentiments be blessed with happiness, health and longevity.

Hi. Today was a happy day because manage to meet up with Qiao Yu, one of the 3 flowers. Aww, too bad, Adela and Tiffany cant join us. Even though it was only the 2 of us, we have so many things to gossip, talk and laugh about. Had such a nice and wonderful time with her. It is the time when I can be my true self and laugh and talk like nobody’s business. Really misses her alot. Best friends for 4 years and still counting. We were in the same for 4 years, first friend I met when I was first step into sec 1 class, joined the same cca (dance club) and so many more. Really enjoy being with her so much. And now, I miss Adela, Qiao Yu and Tiffany and of course 4E1.

Back to the topic, and so we went shopping at bugis. I bought 2 tops, 1 belt and a pair of leggings. All these for only $34.50. The clothes that Bugis Street sells were almost the same aand so it makes the clothes there really cheap. After that, we headed to This Fashion @ Paya Lebar and continue to shop for more clothes. This time round, I did not buy anything. Then, the hungry us went to eat at City Plaza. Yes! Penang Laksa, the food we eat whenever we go there. After eating , we asked each other the same question: “ Are u 100% full? “ And of course our answer was” NO”. Haha, and so we went to Arnold’s Chicken to eat C-H-I-C-K-E-N. OMG, 1 whole chicken shared by the two of us.Nice time eating and crapping there. And after that, home sweet home.

Yes! Going to meet them up soon on 28 may for another Bugis Shopping and a birthday celebration for Bi Xue. Really hope to meet them soon and I missed them a lot and a lot and a lot. No one can make me as happy as they do. =) FRIENDS FOREVER!

Haiz, why can’t even I know the answer myself? I feel them I am such a failure. =’(

Had been playing the new game, Viwawa, that ZK introduced to me ytd. All I can say is that I sucked at it. I was playing with Nykelaz and him till 10 plus and I think I only won once in the Big 2.5. Then had an early turn in ytd because I was extremely tired.

And today is ZK’s birthday. Too bad, you had to celebrate your birthday in Chiangmai. Little bear sis wishes u a HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY and best wishes to you.

Ah. I hate this blog skin a lot . ZK choose a color that I hated the most but he insists that it’s nice. So, I went to search for a blog skin but when I wanted to use that, it said that there is something wrong with the XML codes. But, I had sought help from bear bro and he said he will help me edit the codes. Hmm, so let me wait for another 10 days to get a new blog skin. ^^

I really don’t know what to blog so shall end here.

Hi. My unreluctant first post here. Hmm..disgusting blog add created by my dearest and nicest bro, YZK. ahem* He forced me to create a blog when i was watching 1 litre of tears. And so i said" why not u create for me " and he really really did. And so, i ended up with such a disgusting blog add.

Haha, curious to know how I get this bubble tea thing in my add? Cos everytime on MSN, i will constantly draw and remind him of such a thing called a BUBBLETEA cos he owes me a treat. No, in fact my bear bro, Thad, owed me one too. So until they give me the bubble teas, then i will stop reminding of bubble tea. ^^

Hmm.. both of them are leaving Singapore to Chiangmai tmr to help out in some community work there. Sad 9 days online cos i can't talk to YZK anymore. But he's KIND enough to promise me a shirt from there but for an ulterior motive cos he wants me to get wet on the 20 Jun BBQ. And he said I cld change on to the new shirt after i get wet. =.=' He wanted to take his revenge due to the smart me for attacking him twice. ( Firs, at sentosa, i threw him with lots of sand and secondly, spraying him with some cans ytd) ^^ Hehe.. Shall update at a slower rate cos he said he's waiting for my first post now. Phew, lucky i gt one jiu bing, bear bro to STOP YZK from his evil acts on the 20 Jun.

Shall end here with this short lil post cos this post is just to entertain him if not he will continue to ask me to blog. Okay, off to watch my 1 litre of tears now. Here it is, YZK, my first post!! Bon voyage to u and rmb about my T-shirt but without those THAILAND words in front one. Bye~